colours of my world part IISaturday, December 23, 2006
this is a fictional story inspired by my ex-classmate in primary school.
Returning from an arduous training, which was severely taxing, the thing that came to my mind as I slipped into my cosy queen sized bed was a comfortable rest. As consciousness gradually relinquished its control over my exhausted body, a new terror that is far more gruelling, formidable and punishing than the strenuous physical exercise, was forcefully thrusting into my head. A terrible nightmare had just began...
In the cloak of darkness, I was plunged into another dimension, which strangely resembled the world. Except that this new realm was void of any colour or emotions. There was no more breathtaking sunrise, or beautiful horizons filled with wispy, fluffy clouds. Everything that existed was in depressing shades of grey. Everything left was a discouraging display of lifelessness. It was a horrible sight;People struggled in this world with grim faces, as if living in a choking poisonous mist. My first reaction was to confirm my existence by giving myself a pinch on my cheeks, which sent a surge of pain running through my nerve system.
This was all for real. Confusion, like bony fingers gripped me with a vice-like grip, and panic rushed through my cells. What is happening? Why am I here? Endless questions raced through my mind as I struggled to understand the situation. I attempted to move, but my legs refused, as if being tied to a gigantic boulder of fear. At this moment, a part of me wanted to surrender myself to this omnipotent fear and retreat away from it, yet another part desired to tackle this head-on and restore colours and emotions back into this dimension. Before I could make my decision, a shimmer of bright light blinded me momentarily. As I regained my vision, a beautiful angel emerged before my eyes. She had emerald green eyes, skin as smooth as silk, and a pair of elegant wings. Before I could appreciate her beauty any further, she cut short my thoughts by explaining the dire situation. It seems that a terrible heinous lord had just kidnapped the Colour angels, and thereby plummeting the world into a grey, emotionless sphere. The only way to restore these colours was to annihilate this vile lord, and to release the Colour angels, and I was specifically chosen for this task.
Reaching deep into her cloak, the angel drew out a sword and offered her blessings. Summoning every ounce of courage left in me, I accepted the sword and swore that I would confront this maleficent warlord and not succumb to his sinful acts of wrath. I would not bear with this angony any longer. Without wasting another second, I swiftly made my way to the lair of this warlord. What hell awaited me there? I could only guess.
Trudging through the swampy paths that led to the lair of this warlord, the weight of the righteous sword gradually took its toll on me. Silent breathing turned into ragged gasps for breadth as I persisted on this exhausting journey, travelling straight up a commanding mountain. When the crescent moon took its position in the sky, fatigue was already seeping through my veins, effectively poisoning all my muscle cells. I could hold no more, and as the final resistance was brutally crushed, darkness overwhelmed me as I took refuge in a cave. It was not the warm rays of the sun that nudged me back to consciousness, but a rude rumbling of stone falling down the mountain. After recovering from this abrupt awakening, I was hell bent on discovering the source of this disturbance, which unsettled my sleep. But before I could venture any further from the cave, a flicker of shadow caught my attention. Instinctively, I gripped onto my reassurance, the elegant sword, and cautiously examined the new danger.
Out of the blue, a pair of shuriken flew towards me at break neck speed. I darted out of its path but was forced into a tight corner, as the assassin pressed on with his attack. Sensing that victory was near, the
assassin revealed his position and let loose a mocking laughter, teasing my inability. When he let loose his last shurikens, I thought that my mission was over, and death would soon claim my pitiful soul. Painful memories of my family,friends and the angel appeared before me, haunting my existence. I failed my mission. I failed them all. And most importantly, I failed to restore colours back to this world. Because of my incompetence, I actually allowed evil to triump over the good. No! No way! I swore that I would not allow this to happen. Twisting my body into a unnatural position, I squeezed through the path of the shurikens. Closing the distance between us, I hastily drew my sword as I prepare to claim his head. The assassin, sensing my newly discovered strength, geared himself up with a dagger and a intimidating set of knuckleduster for the duel. As he slipped the last knuckleduster into place, I leapt into the air, hurriedly swinging a blow at his shoulders with all my might. However, the assassin was highly skilled, and that hasty attack was not sterling enough to scratch him.
The role was reversed when my opponent started his attack in a flowing manner, blending briskness with vigor. My energy drained as I defended his attack fanatically, yet my opponent remained so fresh, as if he had limitless energy and power. One potent punch struck my chest forcefully, which send me crashing into the wall of the cave. I struggled to recover footing, as the immense pain vibrating through my head had disoriented my balance. In a flash, the assassin landed another blow on my stomach, forcing me to cough a fresh stream of blood in vain protest. With substantial amount of blood oozing from my wounds, an escape would be impossible. I have to confront this opponent and overcome this obstacle. Familiarising myself with the environment, I realised that my sword was just a short distance away from me. The assassin approached me with the jade dagger in his hand, determined to end his pathetic opponent, which seemed fatally wounded. As he swung his dagger high into the air, I swiftly reached for my sword, and in a deft motion, drove my sword through his heart. He let loose a foul cry as a parting gift, before collasping with a sick 'thud'.
To be continued....
if only...Friday, December 15, 2006
Today, I saw a guy wearing a hearing aid. As my eyes met his, he quickly turned away. If time could be manipulated back, I would have stopped myself from fighting him.
INTJ/ISTJWednesday, December 13, 2006
i was puzzled by some problems these few days, and decided to take a personality test:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
The result was that I was a INTJ, which slightly contradicted with the result of ISTJ when I took a similar test in secondary school.
INTJ profile:
To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.
INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.
INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.
In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.
Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.
This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.
Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.
Now, I feel that I understand alot of my problems and hope other people knows them too.
can you see the future?Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Before, I delve into the main point of this blog entry, I would like draw your attention to some essential background information which are necessary to ensure a smooth, enjoyable reading experience.
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1. 7 hand Poker, mentioned in this blog entry, is a MSN game, which is available with the MSN Live Messenger
2. In order to win this game, you either have to win 3 in a row [ not in consecutive playing sequence, but in consecutive layout.] or win 4 out of 7.
3. For the inquisitive mind, or if you have a prying soul, you can start a game of 7 Hand Poker to satisfy your curiousity.
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I was playing 7 Hand Poker with WJ, and led edgily with a tight scoreline of 3-2.
The crowning moment came when WJ handed me a clear-win situation.
Before playing out my biggest flush to win this game, I briefly lamented that I won this game, because of WJ's fatal mistake.
Then without any more hesitation, I placed my cards on the table, and awaited my glorious moment. To my surprise, the game acknowledged my win with a scoreline of 4-2, yet I wasn't declared the winner.
Fate played a cruel twist on my lament as WJ proceeded to triumph by winning 3 in a row.
This manner of victory jolted me, because at this moment, I realised that nothing in the future is definite. Reinforced by the fictional concept of Sharingan, what we see as inevitable future might only be a misleading illusion potrayed by our eye of hypnosis.
Think about that.
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